Monday, January 27, 2003

Should I Stay or Should I Go: An Email to my Cousin

Hi Al,

How's the wedding preps going on? 6 weeks or so left of your bachelor hood man! :)

I was talking to my good friend who will be the MC of another friend's wedding. You know, the 2nd wedding I have to attend, one week after yours. So what's an MC supposed to do? Or rather, what do you want me to do? I can't just go up there and crack stupid jokes. And who's my co-MC? I hope she's someone single and absolutely gorgeous! Ha ha ha

You know, lately, I have been wondering what to do with my life. I've been in the US for 8 1/2 years now, and I am very comfortable living here. I have a life here, friends, career etc. But I'm lacking in the family department. In particular, mum + dad. To make a really long story short, I want to be around them while they are still alive and well. I don't want to make the same mistake I made with Ah Ma. I think I wasn't around her enough while she was well. I did too little too late for her.

So on one hand, you have my (selfish) desires to stay here with my friends and my job and stuff. Like I said, I have a great life here. Lots of freedom, financially very secure etc.

On the other hand, I want to be with my parents while they're still able to spend time with me.

I think there's no easy solution to this. In the end it's up to what I want to give up. I can't be in the US and have my parents around. And I can't be in Singapore/Malaysia and enjoy the same level of comfort as I have in the US.

Sigh... Decisions decisions decisions... Well, just thought I'd tell you what I've been thinking of the whole evening. Heh heh... I think you already have enough stuff on your mind without having to worry about what I'm thinking. :)

Well, see you in a few weeks. Say hi the wife-to-be for me!


Derek

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