Random, really random

I was kinda bored, so I typed in my name "Derek Lau" into Yahoo. You know, ego surfing.

The 8th match was titled "I love you, Ah Ma". Alwyn wrote this almost a year ago. I've read it a million times I think. Or maybe it just seems like a million times. But I read it again anyway.

And it feels like the hurt is still so fresh. Just started crying again. I still miss her...

Me happy :)

J and I are off to a good start. I think. :)

I feel happy with her. Even when she's checking email and I'm lying on the bed half asleep. Even when she's doing her photos and I'm just watching her do it. Even when we're doing nothing. Especially when we're doing nothing.

A little scared... She's never said how she feels, and I'm too afraid to trust what I see or what I think. I'm hoping time and patience will coax her to share her feelings.

Also afraid that this happiness could be so short-lived. She doesn't have a job. If she doesn't find a job pronto, she will lose her H1 status. And then what? She'll have to leave and return to Singapore. I don't want that. I don't know what to do if that happens. But I'll take it one step at a time. There are several ideas that I can pursue to solve those problems. One thing at a time.

For now, me very happy. 'nuff said. :)