Trip trip tripping out

I'm tripping out over S (jewish babe). Our relationship just went one step beyond friendship, and now I don't know what's what anymore.

With A (my israeli babe) I know she is leaving in a month, and I've made my peace with it. With S, I don't know what's going to happen, or how things are going to go. It makes me irritated and confused when I don't have a clear picture of where things are headed.

Part of what makes it confusing is that we are friends. I'm almost tempted to say that we WERE friends, except that I still value her very much as a friend, and I believe she feels the same way too. I want to keep having that kind of buddy intimacy, while hopefully being able to indulge in the new frontiers that S and I have just explored.

I don't know what she thinks. I want to talk to her and really get into her mind, but I think that won't really be much good cos I don't think she really knows what she wants either. But damn, it would be nice to know, wouldn't it?

I'm very open to exploring where things lead to from here. S is a good girl. She's a little confused about what she wants in life, but then again, aren't we all? She's got a good heart, she's interested in improving herself, she has an open mind, what more could I ask?

I wish she'd read what I'm writing, so that it would be easier for me to talk to her...

I just realized that my blog entries are almost exclusively about money or women. I guess most other parts of my life are pretty much taken care of, so I just blog about what's on my mind at the moment. Which turns out to be (guess what?) money and women. Funny isn't it?