Bulletproof

This is going to be one of those surface-level-yet-deep posts where I try to condense a bunch of thoughts into one blog post. It never quite works out the way I intend, but what the heck right?

Amy said that I'm getting more spiritual as I meander down this journey that started with me asking myself, "How do I meet women?". It's a crazy rabbit hole, and every time I dig, I find that it only goes deeper.

I met a guy, Gary. Gary is the security guard in my apartment building. He is 60, bald, asian, overweight, works 2 jobs (security guard and cleaner) and is divorced. I've walked past Gary a hundred times or more. But on Thursday, it was different. I talked, REALLY TALKED, to him. I found out that he was a healer with a zillion years of experience in "alternative medicine". He had spent years working with native american shamans, learning energy work, etc. We talked. I had to run off for a house party, but I knew I had to talk more to him. So when I got home that night, I changed into my sweats and went down to the security desk. And we talked and talked and talked till the sun rose and Gary had to head off for his next job. It's amazing because when I'm on this journey, it's like the universe is herding me towards some destination and providing me with all the people I need to succeed on this journey. Synchronicity indeed!

I met a masseuse Haemin. Without going into too much detail, I'll just say that she lovingly ripped me to bits. Why not? Because I'm still trying to process the stuff that we talked about.

A pair of my friends are going through some tough times in their relationship. The girl P is very emotional. When she gets into one of her "moods", she just goes on and on about something and it becomes a case of borderline verbal hysteria. Not an attack on her, just a comment on the way I perceive her. On the other hand, the guy V is a somewhat divorced from his emotions and doesn't seem to know how to handle it well. P unleashes her verbal hysteria, V doesn't know how to receive it and honor her emotions, and he shuts down and lashes out. And of course that just makes things worse. But I don't know for sure. I've only talked to P, and not to V yet. I'd be interested in seeing his point of view, and perhaps helpng them create a safe space where they can vent their emotions and maybe even grow more together.

So what's up with the title Bulletproof?

It's a group of guys that are dedicated to improving themselves. It includes a bunch of guys that I am proud to call my friends, as well as a couple of guys that I am honored to call my mentors. I'm glad, almost relieved, to be a part of that group. I believe it's another step I am taking in my journey...