Married!

My last post was Sep 2009, just after I got back from Burning Man. Wow, I haven't written in FIVE years.

I totally forgot that I liked to write. It's pretty cool writing cos it makes you think about STUFF as you write, and then you start reliving the moments, and sometimes you learn something new from that introspection.

Who am I kidding? I learn A LOT thru introspection.

Anyways, Alwyn reminded me that this blog existed. He was looking for something he wrote way back when. Apparently Angelfire.com is dead (who woulda guessed) and Blogger.com is still alive. Yay google?!

OK the BIG news. I'm getting married in less than 2 days. It's Friday 2am-ish and the thing is going down on Sat around 3pm. So that's... 36 hours or something. It's pretty damn big deal.

I identify with Coulton's Code Monkey song. Especially the parts where he sings about one day he'll have a pretty girl. And that last bit as they are sitting by the cliff overlooking the bay and that goblin cupid shoots an arrow in her butt. Well, I've found my pretty girl. :)

Love her love her.

What else... Oh Alex. He's so damn cute. I love being with him and watching him grow and change and learn and become ... MORE. He's always doing cute funny crazy stupid 7 year old stuff. He's so uninhibited. Feels like I could learn a lot from him on ways of being. Truly, when you're young, you just ARE. So much fewer internal filters created by decades of living up to societal expectations.

Also, there's that whole Malaysia + Bali trip. Looking forward to it.

Uh... a little bored writing. I'm starting to ramble. Or maybe I'm just done repeating all the stuff that I've been talking about in my real life.

BUT here's the thing. Now that I've been reminded that this lil thing exists, it's gonna be so much easier for me to actually WRITE. Wouldn't that be a change.

Memorable Moments at Burning Man 2009

EGO - Watching somebody (who shall remain nameless) stand by the road for 15 minutes hollering at girls, trying unsuccessfully to get them to come to the camp party. Then showing off by telling him I'll take care of it, and then promptly getting a hot Aussie girl to come with us in a few seconds.

AWE - Looking up at the full moon and seeing a halo, a perfect circle, around the moon. And wondering how fucking awesome must that art camp be that made that! ;)

LOSS - Writing about Lana on the temple wall "We could have been here together, but now I have to let you go".

PEACE - Sunrise on Tuesday morning, standing by a burn barrel, watching as the sky lightened up gradually with uneven streaks of orange flame.

ACCEPTANCE - Cuddling with a lawyer girl from Oakland, and listening to her story of how she contracted herpes, and feeling nothing but love and compassion for her vulnerability.

NAUGHTY - Sneaking a peek at Chloe's nipples through her dress. Wonder why, since there were a ton of other naked girls around.

MANLY - Talking to the guys at 5.30am in camp about the other girls, and which ones we fancied. And then realizing that one of the girls was wide awake the whole time.

What I'm Here For

I was talking to this dude at Burning Man. He wasn't very much fun, kinda one track mind in his conversational ability. But he did say something that made me think. He said, I lived in the Mojave desert for years and I'm not here for the art or the parties, I just come to take care of people (from dehydration etc).

Made me think... What am I here for?

I'm not here for the art. The art is cool and all, but I'm not a super artsy kinda guy, and art 24x7 is a little much.

I'm not here for the alcohol or the parties. I drink less in a week at Burning Man than I do on a normal weekend night.

I'm here for the people. I'm here for the awesome sense of humanity that pervades the place. The sense that you're all just connected, and everyone is your friend, your brother, your sister.

My second burn had less of an immediate impact than my first. But it did give me more clarity about what I want, and that can't possibly be anything less than a great thing!

Proof that God Exists

Have you ever seen somebody working on a fence and takes a hammer and hit their thumb and go "Awww... Buddha!" You ever see them do that? How many hit a gold ball like I hit a golf ball and they go "Ohhh... Mohammed!" Why do they call that name? You know what they do? They go "Jesus Christ!" "Jesus Christ!" Why do they call that name? Because I believe when a person gets hurt or they get angry, they wanna blame who? They want to blame God.

From http://www.boingboing.net/2009/06/23/tv-preacher-proves-t.html

Re Anger

From the final seconds of How I Met Your Mother, Season 4, Episode 6...

You may think your only choices are to swallow your anger or throw it in someone's face. There's a 3rd option. You can just let it go. And only when you do that is it really gone, and you can move forward.